Knowing what to share here on the blog is tricky. (I just took down a rather personal post.) Some times I feel like it would be a really great place to pour my heart out; to see if anyone else feels the same way about things. Being in ministry with a rather high-profile church makes that tricky. I don’t want to put anyone’s reputation in jeopardy, and I certainly don’t want people to have any more fuel to add to the fire of the current climate if they take something that I say out of context.
Sometimes though, the burden that comes from being a pastor’s wife and worship leader (less of a worship leader these days) is heavy. Recently I heard someone say, “Leadership is lonely.” That is so true. At times it’s difficult to not be offended by things people say about your husband or your ministry. I hold on to offenses way longer than my husband. That leads to isolation and discouragement. It’s in those times that I know that I must spend time a deeper time with God. For me that means extra time reading the bible, more time on my knees, and taking every thought captive. I can easily follow a dark road if I don’t stay keep my thoughts account current. It’s the only way to allow my Savior to carry the burden of ministry.
Today I grab a go-to verse to carry with me. I know you’ve read it on my blog before. It’s Philippians 4:4-9. It’s in the NIV. I appreciate how in verse 8 it addresses “brothers AND sisters.”
“4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”
Solacegirl 
Oh, Amy, you shouldn’t have taken the old one down. We all go through ups and downs and I know from my experience with personal blogging that sometimes the things we reveal can be cathartic for ourselves and might be just the thing someone else needs to hear.
Living with pain and lack of sleep is so, so difficult and when you add that to the major change your family has made, I’m sure that your heart is challenged. I don’t have any wise words, but I wish I was there to give you a hug.
Take care of yourself and let that sweet hubby of yours do the same.
xoxox
Sunglasses!!! Thank you Miss Debbie. I appreciate your kind words. I would love a hug from you, and know that one day I will get a big one. I’ll pass it on to the hubby. Hugs.
I can understand what you’re feeling, Sissy. I keep deleting thoughts about this post…just too much to say. We should Skype or have a phone visit soon, especially when you’re in the thick of it and wondering if anyone feels the same way; which I can validate that you’re not alone in this. Hugs.
Thanks Sissy. Sounds really good. I need to do that. Not very good at keeping in touch. So used to just pushing ahead. Luv u.